Hello love.

After about 4 months, you are still my bear. It definitely hasn't been easy but we are still together. Actually time seems to fly but I believe this relationship has been somehow brought to the next level. I brought you to show my parents, that was a great step to take because I want things to be different from last time. I wanted to wait until I am totally ready and previously foreseen it to be about 6 months or a year. I wasn't sure about this initially because of the fears in me. But at that moment I just thought that I was ready. I don't know how did I master the courage but I realized it's you. You gave me the assurance to do so I guess.

After 4 long months, I still miss you when I am alone at home because nobody can hold me to sleep.

I love you.

Promises of a Bear to a Mushroom..

I am a bear and she is a mushroom.

Dear Mushroom,

Have you ever thought how a mushroom and a bear can fall in love? It doesnt make sense right? Its just like homosexual, its just like many things out there that not conventional. To people out there alot of things that arent suppose to be this way or that way, but its all happening due to love and feelings. We tried to not be together a few times but eventually we are still where we are today.. this is because we believe and we try our best..

Things are looking very very green and bearbear is very optimistic about this relationship. Thus the expectation of mushroom grew day by day. I know its pressurising on you but thats just me naturally wanting more of you. Wanting you to give your everything coz i am giving my everything too. i sincerely hope that one day you could open up fully to me. I want to give more and more and more and i want to see us work and have a beautiful future.

Even thought of having little bearbear and little mushrooms running around... Its a dream but it will beccome a reachable dream, if we can last through thick and thin together as one. hahahaha dun worry i am not scarying you, i dun wanna get married too young or unsure like my sister.

And baby yes there are many things that i try to hide or dun say coz when i say it, it just affects my mood. But i guess bearing everything up myself i will just drive myself nuts sooner or later. I promise i will try to tell you everything i can to use your listening ears.

Same for you, please let me know how you are feeling, coz i wanna be there for you always. Can we promise to do this tgt? bear and mushroom will go through rain and shine together. just like the picture above:)

I love you

The bear.

I met a bear that changed my life. He gave me support in many ways and I am really grateful towards him. I don’t know how to show my gratitude and all I can do is to love him. I am happy that we can talk about so many things and I am not afraid to show my flaws in front of him.

The only thing that I am working on is to tear down all the walls and let him into my life completely. Yes there is this fear that is holding me back from many things. I know this is not good because I might be missing out on many wonderful opportunities in life.

I must be able to assure myself and not asking people around me for assurance. I should start to feel on my own instead of asking what others perceive. I must start to believe in love again and will be happy. I must have confidence in myself again in order to make this work.

I know that my bear has his own worries and things to fret about. I usually don’t ask until he tells me because I respect him and am willing to give him space for his own thoughts. But I hope that he knows that I am always here for him to lend him a listening ear.

My bear takes good care of me and is trying his best to give in to me. And me being a mushroom, I am learning to see things from his point of view. I used to be a stubborn bitch but am learning a different approach to love a person. I am trying because I love the bear.

I hope that we can continue to work hard together and make this work. I am starting to have confidence that this will be an everlasting, sweet relationship of a bear and a mushroom. I made the right decision to be with a bear. :D

Ok, thanks, BYE!

HugsHugs

Hugs are an important expression of affection. By hugging someone, you remind them that you care about them and support them. Hugs are easy but like we said it's not always easy; to hug you need to be friends or more, then smile at the person and hug them. Just take it slow and steady. Maybe can end it with a little kiss :) wahahaha

Privacy.

Blogging is not stupid, it is just a place for me to rant and express my thoughts which I can't express verbally. I've shifted from place to place because I hate people reading my posts. It makes me feel insecure to know that people I know are reading my entries and defeats the purpose of having a blog.

I don't like to see anonymous replies from people.

I just want this private space of my own.

This is my way of handling this because I like it.